dunno why, keep thinking of a few pple. it's like a tape on replay mode going on n on n on.... mb i'm reali getting abit too bored. time to get a new book. ha.

my fren juz told me i could have drawn blood from her dad. apparently it wasnt very impressive. oh dear. now i feel bad. oh well. some grouchy old lady came in this morning and grumbled alot then when i was done taking her blood she said very good next time i shall request for you n i was like errrr..... gosh.

so far it's reali been a roller coaster ride. up n down, round n round. one thing i'm reali interested to find out is if politics is reali all part n parcel of any workplace. can't we all be genuinely happy?? ok. mb i'm the naive one. but when i do put my real self in i do hope i can get reciprocation. mb it's reali hard. explains why MOM regulates we can oni spend much time at work. it's to prevent our real selves from rotting.

how could an angel break my heart.. suddenly tot of this song. mb it best describes me at this time. mb i'm juz deprived of sleep. mb i need some distraction, like mj. so many maybes, so many if onlys. if only...

dunno y, suddenly feeling quite down. realized it's reali a jungle out there. there're jus so many sides to a story/person u dunno which is the truth.

today suddenly kena arrowed by monster. lucky senior helped me. but monster like not been very happy with me. mb i'm juz being oversensitive. but somehow i haf the feeling i'll either get extended probation(meaning no bonus) or get terminated(meaning no job). yes? oh well. reali have to take it as it comes ba. alot of big plans to get alot of things, but i guess best is to wait until everything's confirmed before i start making big plans.

this week has been relatively short, considering the fact i was at orientation for 2days. heh. next week will be good too. monster's on leave, and there's a PH on thu n the following mon. unfortunately after dat the next PH is christmas liao, dn my D-Day. dun think so much 1st. take one day at a time, concentrate on no love letter days.

sudden urge to do alot of farnie things again. realized i hafnt exactly let go or forgot. mb it's reali too impt to me.

dunno y, feel quite empty. in need of a good listening ear. is dat like a hint?? haha.. mb i juz need to rediscover some friendships n relationships.

actually tot abt it on the way home. see wat long bus trips can do. haha. anyway, who decides what is natural or impt?? u?? me?? some authority?? dn who decided dat authority should be one in the 1st place??

bb sulky n shrypy seem to be.... hmm... inseparable?? they've been attituding me lately. should i risk sulky losing more shell n put the 2 of them together or should i be cruel n continue to separate them??

went for orientation past 2 days, juz returned to wk today, dn now blur liao. one min oh it's wed dn suddenly ehz not monday mehz oh ya yesterday tue... gng siao... haha..

was almost brainwashed by the facilitators. they kept on emphasizing on customer service blah blah until i got scared. whoa. didnt noe nurses were so outspoken too. didnt make any new frens(not surprising).

orientation wasn't half dat bad. so it was boring. but it gave me an opprotunity. reali couldnt believe my luck man. esp yesterday. still thinking abt it now. can take blood halfway dn ehz.... sometimes fate n God aren't dat hard to believe in afterall. someone IS listening. ha.

mb i reali am a very pessimistic person. something happpens, and i assume the worst. dn again, it cant be helped, esp if i'm right like 85% of the time. oh well. mb i should reali learn to let go.

today was cool. i actuali took blood from boss of CK Tangs and didnt realise it until my colleague confirmed wif my boss. fwah!!! but she was a nice lady, no airs. oni thing dat more or less gave her away was when she said my boss aka monster "has a knack for taking blood painlessly. no wonder all the ministers' wives like her." err... ok... haha...

my mind's suddenly running all over the world again. i should reali rein it in. but honestly, i do like where it's running to, even if it may juz be plain air to nobody else but me. a little imagination helps. heh.

oh well. time for my tv shows. last episode liao.