dunno y, suddenly feeling quite down. realized it's reali a jungle out there. there're jus so many sides to a story/person u dunno which is the truth.

today suddenly kena arrowed by monster. lucky senior helped me. but monster like not been very happy with me. mb i'm juz being oversensitive. but somehow i haf the feeling i'll either get extended probation(meaning no bonus) or get terminated(meaning no job). yes? oh well. reali have to take it as it comes ba. alot of big plans to get alot of things, but i guess best is to wait until everything's confirmed before i start making big plans.

this week has been relatively short, considering the fact i was at orientation for 2days. heh. next week will be good too. monster's on leave, and there's a PH on thu n the following mon. unfortunately after dat the next PH is christmas liao, dn my D-Day. dun think so much 1st. take one day at a time, concentrate on no love letter days.

sudden urge to do alot of farnie things again. realized i hafnt exactly let go or forgot. mb it's reali too impt to me.

dunno y, feel quite empty. in need of a good listening ear. is dat like a hint?? haha.. mb i juz need to rediscover some friendships n relationships.

actually tot abt it on the way home. see wat long bus trips can do. haha. anyway, who decides what is natural or impt?? u?? me?? some authority?? dn who decided dat authority should be one in the 1st place??

bb sulky n shrypy seem to be.... hmm... inseparable?? they've been attituding me lately. should i risk sulky losing more shell n put the 2 of them together or should i be cruel n continue to separate them??