it's reali abit hard to get on without monster.. he alwiz seemed to be the oni one who bothered to look at me or pay me any attention... the other 2?? too bz digging n hiding under their comfort toys.. i'm sorry monster. i'm sorry i couldnt give u a bigger space or friendlier flatmates or better, healthier conditions. i'm sorry i neglected to ensure u fully recovered before putting u back in, instead of hoping u'd do well enuff wif the rest.

when i saw him, he was almost dried out. i quickly put him back into the water but he kept trying to go back up on the log. his shell was bloody. he looked weak. yet all i did was to isolate him n put in medicine. did i overdose him?? did i drown him?? did i kill him?? i'll never noe.. but when i held his stiff body 60mins after i reached home, i was thinking: this mb good for you, your suffering has come to an end. as much as i couldnt bear to let u leave...

my memories of monster: when he was stil so small when i first brought him home.. when i bot Baby to keep him company.. how naughty he was when he kept bullying Baby..snatching all the food there is.. when i found Baby dead how i suspected monster did it.. when i bot the 2 newbies... he looked so much like a big brother... how he was bullied by bb sulky... how he liked me to scratch his shell.. when he became very sick but survived.. until yesterday...

sleep well, monster.. u will be bullied no more.. be happy..

RIP Monster
21st July 2004
2335hrs

In Loving Memory of my very 1st turtle.
I'm sorry I couldn't save you, even though I did try my best.
If only I had isolated and given you medication earlier.
If only I could read your behaviour and react accordingly.
If only I wasn't so busy, I could and would have given you more attention.
If only....

lalala.... haha... in quite a good mood...
got a new car!!!!!!!! woohoo!!!!!!! is Kia Picanto.. small hatchback which surprisingly looks like honda jazz... it's off-peak car... but STILL... new, n i'm half the owner!!!!! heh.... now if oni i can get the blood bank job... although the car's reali basic(no central lock even!!) n it's coming in oni in the next 2-3 months... i'm oledi starting to plan alot alot of things liao... heh....

went to airport to send Yuli n Naajia off yesterday... for a brief moment when they went in it got kinda misty... oooh.... hopefuly wed adeline'll be able to leave... then next round's in feb... more pple leaving... wonder if i ever do leave too will there be anyone at the airport for me?? *ponder*

changed my hp plan today to suntalk 150.. free incoming whole day, limited free outgoing, 500sms.. suits me though.. since when i call out?? heh... but hor.. y is there this nagging suspicion suddenly i'll either sms super alot or call super alot then no one calls me?? hmmm.... oh well... see how it goes...

had a meeting to discuss prog for next week's camp n training... do still haf quite abit of energy n sadism left in me... heh... *devil horns n tail showing*

fwah... the new tank's good for em but bad for me... so freaking heavy n bulky... taking like double the time to clean n wash the tank... thk i'd better do it oni when someone's at home...

got a new camera too...FREE!!! fm my aunt... heh.... cool... got remote somemore... but hafn't had the time to go take a good look at it yet... suddenly i like alot of new things hor?? then when can i get a new job ar?? hmmm... heh..

actuali... was kinda pissed over the weekend... sometimes i do take things too seriously, or think way tooo much.. mb i shld try be a simpler person... oh well..