perfectionist: a person who adheres to or believes in perfectionism.

i nay not be a perfectionist, but i do demand a certain standard from myself. i am unfotunately one who'll harp on my own mistakes for awhile, frown till i get a headache before i finally decide to move on. this is a bad habit i think i should change. hmmm.

less than ten days into the new year, i made a mistake in my work. again. as someone who prides myself on speed and quality, it was a big blow. ahhhhhhhhhh.......... haiz.

but as people told me, forget it, be more careful, move on. move on, damn it!!! err... ok... maybe they didnt't damn, but i suppose i got the point.

i should really make it a point to avoid making more stupid mistakes like this, especially when there're people whom i think are waiting to see me fall. ok. maybe that was another exaggeration, but i don't like the vibes and swipes i get from that particular 'colleague' whom i am trying to be professional with.

deep breaths... hold.... exhale...