hmmm... funny how moods and attitudes can change... it's almost scary...

is it sunshine after rain now?? i cerainly hope so... past week was abit of a torture... abit too much distance for my liking..

was just looking at my msn pic. when was the last time anyone saw me grin like that in a photo?? well... neither have i, really. but i really like what i see... haha...

think i need to get certain bad habits out of the way, for example not telling anyone my thoughts or plans until i'm forced to. so much for 'surprises' huh. but was a relief to disclose what i decided at the beginning of the week. though it wasn't done in the end, it feels good to get it out of my system, especially when it's to someone so important... helped soften the situation abit too, i guess. sure doesn't feel good being misunderstood.

right now, i need to really take the giant step out in my bid to not become a 'uniformed' staff anymore... everyone keep fingers crossed??

oh... and the much anticipated break at the end of the month.... first time out on a flight.... hope it'll work out....

sunshine? where?

stolen... replaced by dark clouds...

please don't take my sunshine away..

i don't want you to regret you ever left even before we're out of the tunnel....

feeling a bit out of sorts... i'm not the only one... not sure why though...

is it something i did? something i said?
or something i didn't say or do??

ironically, for someone like me who doesn't talk much (or doesn't like to) i'd rather we communicate by talking than letting things simmer and slowly come to a boil... someone gets scalded in the end.. i don't like the feeling, nor uncertainty... something is wrong, but what??

sometimes i wonder if i'm being too sensitive, reading too much into things, or am i too dense, and i can't catch a hint?? do i push too far, too hard?? or am i not trying hard enough??

ughh.. another shot...