been feeling weird lately... like super moody n attitude... haiz.... dunno is PMS or PMLS or depression or juz plain OOP quarter-life crisis.

feel so insecure about alot of things.. why things happened in the 1st place, what happened that made things happen, what i'm landing myself into...

honestly i dunno y, but i suddenly feel very sick of my job... could be my colleagues, could be due to the plain fact i'm doing nothing but drawing blood n rotting, or mb someone juz reminded me dat i shouldnt be wasting my life in such a hellhole. or mb i'm juz envious of everyone else who's leaving soon, starting fm next thu. yes. okok. mb i shouldnt make it too obvious. ha. oh well...

something reali pissed me off today. vendor sent a memo on changing the sequence of draw, so now is PT tube b4 red top plain. so i argued, they got my point but refused to let me have my way. in the end, my boss juz "juz follow. u're still under training." so now what?? u prefer robots who dun question?? fine. seems like i didnt make a wrong choice by deciciding not to bring my work home. what goes on with the uniform comes off with it. everything.

i'm tired. reali so tired. time to bring my shell back out. after next thu.