suddenly i've been updating my blog almost everyday for the past week..
suddenly i've gone mad over exercising.... i ask myself/my poor colleagues the same qn everyday: run or swim??? ha... but have to admit... it's really quite therapeutic.. though i think i'd still prefer swimming. feels like it takes less of an effort. hmmm.

not sure if it's all just a passing phase.. blogging probably... mainly because there's been abit to talk about... although it all looks and sounds the same...

hopefully i can keep up my enthusiasm over exercising...that it will not just be a short term distraction... but i think i'm either not pushing myself hard enough or i need to change my running location. my mind is still running alot faster and further than i'd like it to. today i was trying to concentrate on not killing myself but memories just kept coming.. sweet as they may be, i still felt a pang of helplessness and sadness.

life is really all about choices..i could have walked but i chose to stay because i really want to.. u could have walked but u too, chose to stay... but u're not happy, and it hurts to see u hurt. i hope to be able to get u away from it, and i hope u'll choose to let me do it...