it sure feels weird to blog now, esp since i haven't been doing so for so long. even trying to type properly is becoming a problem. oh well.
nothing exciting going on too far, except shrypy laid 11 more eggs since the last post. 5 in a day was her record. it's really amazing how fertile the kiddo can be. ha.
i'm at the stage of hanging out more with a person again. it's really surreal (if i may use that word) how things happen. we were stangers for much of the time, and suddenly we juz clicked and starting confiding in each other. weird. comfortable's appropriate to describe this but nope, nothing's happening, nor will anything happen. i hope. control; control.
sometimes thinking's really not too good for one's health. haiz. i see that point but it's juz so hard to put into practice.esp now i'm rotting away at east shore. i'm adapting so well i felt so lost and alienated when i was back at Mt E for a day. almost couldn't wait to go back. oh well.. speaking of rot. yesterday was a day when Murphy loved me. anything that can go wrong will and does. freak. i made so many mistakes i really felt damn useless after wk. haiz. shall not dwell on it too much.
helplessness is never a good feeling, esp if u know nothing's gna come out of it. that's when depression sets in. i've been asking alot of weird questions lately, and in the process opening up some old wounds. i do hope they're healing well. it's hard, but i hope i wun haf to go through the whole s*** of getting hurt again. mb that's why i built an almost impermeable fortress round myself, according to my fren. m i?? i dunno.
i lost 4kg. had a short bout of poisoning, had fun doing 0calorie intake sundays, and now generally i eat pretty little compared to the past. i like how i feel.jeans not too tight anymore. heh heh. but i guess i'm gettng heavier elsewhere. is it really possible to ditch the emotional baggage? or m i deliberately tying it to myself??
nothing exciting going on too far, except shrypy laid 11 more eggs since the last post. 5 in a day was her record. it's really amazing how fertile the kiddo can be. ha.
i'm at the stage of hanging out more with a person again. it's really surreal (if i may use that word) how things happen. we were stangers for much of the time, and suddenly we juz clicked and starting confiding in each other. weird. comfortable's appropriate to describe this but nope, nothing's happening, nor will anything happen. i hope. control; control.
sometimes thinking's really not too good for one's health. haiz. i see that point but it's juz so hard to put into practice.esp now i'm rotting away at east shore. i'm adapting so well i felt so lost and alienated when i was back at Mt E for a day. almost couldn't wait to go back. oh well.. speaking of rot. yesterday was a day when Murphy loved me. anything that can go wrong will and does. freak. i made so many mistakes i really felt damn useless after wk. haiz. shall not dwell on it too much.
helplessness is never a good feeling, esp if u know nothing's gna come out of it. that's when depression sets in. i've been asking alot of weird questions lately, and in the process opening up some old wounds. i do hope they're healing well. it's hard, but i hope i wun haf to go through the whole s*** of getting hurt again. mb that's why i built an almost impermeable fortress round myself, according to my fren. m i?? i dunno.
i lost 4kg. had a short bout of poisoning, had fun doing 0calorie intake sundays, and now generally i eat pretty little compared to the past. i like how i feel.jeans not too tight anymore. heh heh. but i guess i'm gettng heavier elsewhere. is it really possible to ditch the emotional baggage? or m i deliberately tying it to myself??
posted by turtzzz @ 9:24 PM
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