the long horrible's week finally over... back... really missed very badly...
trying hard to control myself... my emotions...

many demons, monsters...
physically, mentally, emotionally feeling very lousy...
major pms...
doesn't help that insecurity's a constant companion...
reaching breaking point...
but yet so reluctant to ask for help...
don't want spoil it for you...
but i wonder. did you realize, like everyone else did, that there was something not right about me?
or did you think i was just being my old self, showing my attitude problem??
maybe i should have told you.
but like i said, i don't want to spoil it for you.
it's not my time. i know that.

feel like burying my head under a pillow, cry myself to sleep...