been becoming alot meaner lately. more sarcastic n insulting. feel a lack of 'feel-good' emotions. oh dear. could be PMS, or i reali need to check myself into a psychiatric ward. oh well. but i juz hate the feeling of helplessness n disgust to some extent when some idiot is trying to irritate the hell out of u, and it doesnt help even after various warnings. u feel like bashing the daylights out of her, but u noe it's wrong. grrr. i hate it.
there's this 3 storey house facing the block of Mt E i'm slogging away at now. the layout more or less reminds me of THAT certain 3 storey house i used to go to so often in the past. this house looks kinda nice n warm. i even thought of gng up to the house, ring the doorbell n ask to go in n take a look. haha. speaking of the other house, think i'd feel like an intruder if i ever had the chance to go in again. looks like it's true. there's nothing u can do about turning back time.
think i'm becoming more n more not human-inclined. i juz seem to have this problem starting or holding a decent conversation, yet i can go on n on toking to my turts. it's quite disturbing to a certain extent, especially when i NEED to tok to virtual strangers. haiz.
making a half-hearted effort in trying to keep in contact with my frens. half hearted coz i oni think n think n do nothing about it, and juz keep hoping the other party will somehow remember my existence n make the effort to reach out to me. ha. i'm becoming a nutcase.
i was, n still am, sneering at pple who fall in n out of love so fast it seems like they're changing clothes for the season.but now that i've taken a step back, i'm wondering if i'm actually the dumber one, holding on, hankering after the almost-confirmed-99.99%-impossible. see, i still have time to delude myself here by hanging on to the 0.01% that shouldnt even belong to me in the 1st place. at least they're samrt n brave enough to forget n move on. am i the coward now??
the next long weekend's coming. i hope i have the courage, and with the help of whoever i need help from, to succeed.
there's this 3 storey house facing the block of Mt E i'm slogging away at now. the layout more or less reminds me of THAT certain 3 storey house i used to go to so often in the past. this house looks kinda nice n warm. i even thought of gng up to the house, ring the doorbell n ask to go in n take a look. haha. speaking of the other house, think i'd feel like an intruder if i ever had the chance to go in again. looks like it's true. there's nothing u can do about turning back time.
think i'm becoming more n more not human-inclined. i juz seem to have this problem starting or holding a decent conversation, yet i can go on n on toking to my turts. it's quite disturbing to a certain extent, especially when i NEED to tok to virtual strangers. haiz.
making a half-hearted effort in trying to keep in contact with my frens. half hearted coz i oni think n think n do nothing about it, and juz keep hoping the other party will somehow remember my existence n make the effort to reach out to me. ha. i'm becoming a nutcase.
i was, n still am, sneering at pple who fall in n out of love so fast it seems like they're changing clothes for the season.but now that i've taken a step back, i'm wondering if i'm actually the dumber one, holding on, hankering after the almost-confirmed-99.99%-impossible. see, i still have time to delude myself here by hanging on to the 0.01% that shouldnt even belong to me in the 1st place. at least they're samrt n brave enough to forget n move on. am i the coward now??
the next long weekend's coming. i hope i have the courage, and with the help of whoever i need help from, to succeed.
posted by turtzzz @ 8:12 PM
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